I’m pissed off and I WANT A DRINK!

This is the first day in just under a month a when I really want a drink and feel sorely tempted. I can almost feel the sensation of how a big gulp of wine would soothe my troubled brow. I’m not in a pub, out with friends, I’m at home alone and just really pissed off.

It doesn’t help that in the last few days, without going into detail, I’ve had to show positive regard to an ignorant rascist, listen as two young people with outwardly everything to live for tell me that they are planning on ending their lives, hear that many of our female politicians have had death threats made against them and try and be upbeat when a sobbing man tells me he cannot get the help he needs from the NHS because he has had his quota of “free” counselling.

All this has been going on whilst having essential building work done on my house that has made me feel that I’m living under siege and the costs keep rising as more issues are found.

On top of this my body acts as though it has aged 10 years in a day. The final straw today though was finding that my car has been bashed by a red car in a nearby car park. No note or apology but I think I know the car in question and tomorrow there could be a showdown. That should guarantee a sleepless night.

This all reminds me of how I often felt when working full time. Being a deputy principal in a school, managing staff, parents, disputes, working weekends, drink was a way of switching off and putting stress to one side. We all know the perils of that but it seems really tempting right now. I suppose that’s why I’m writing this post; get through it, get through it.

Pause.Stop. Breathe. Relax.

The car’s just a bloody car, the building work will get done, money will sort itself. The encounters though, yes they were upsetting but at least I was on the right side of them. Mine are minor troubles, some people see nothing but darkness and joy never seems to visit them. My problems are as nothing compared to them.

Ok, I think I’ve regained some perspective. I’m pissed off but I DON’T NEED A DRINK. It won’t help. It was close though.

Jim x

15 thoughts on “I’m pissed off and I WANT A DRINK!

  1. nomorebeer2019

    Jiiiiim ! We are here with you! Hang in there, you will get over this. Feel the pissed-off-ness fully and let it pass. Yep, you don’t need to drink, you already know it. You’ll be really proud to have faced all this shit with your own means and zero exterior crutch 🙂 This is the first real challenge, YOU CAN DO THIS 🙂

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  2. functioningguzzler

    Good on you for coming on here and writing it out. Don’t let the little alcoholic bitch voice convince you that it has the answer to your stress. It doesn’t in fact itveoukd just add to it along with the self loath tomorrow for letting it happen.

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  3. Stacy

    Stay strong! Sometimes when I get really pissed off I throw shit. Don’t drink. It won’t solve a thing and then you’ll be pissed off about that. Hang in there!! You can get through this!

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  4. Addy

    Whether you drink or not, those problems will still be there. Someone once told me “if you have a problem and can fix it, it’s not a problem.” I’m not dismissing your problems, just saying in the grand scheme of things, they can be fixed and drinking won’t alter that one way or the other. It’s hard, I know. I’m trying to lose a few pounds and all I can think of is crisps and chocolate. I try to keep busy and distract myself. Maybe when you get thoughts of alcohol, do something distracting. Go for a walk, clean out the fridge, tidy a cupboard. The time will pass and hopefully the temptation. You’ve done so well, so far. Don’t lose sight of that.

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    1. Jim Simmonds Post author

      Thanks Addy, even this morning things look different to the night before. Oddly enough just being involved with the blog and reading and responding to comments is a help and distraction. Also like you say,”in the scheme of things…”. Good luck with the weight loss!
      Jim x

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  5. sobrietytree

    Oh my…. you are a true superhero. And I am glad, for the entire world. 😉😆

    And as you show here, when the going gets tough…. the tough DON’T DRINK!!!!

    Ahahahahaha that just came to me now. But I bet it is possibly the actual fact of how the true superheroes in the world operate. Live soft = die hard.

    Ooh. I’m on a slogan roll today. Must be the power of the sobriety scenius. And your superhero-ness. 💪🌎🧘🏽‍♀️

    sending hugs, xo n/stl 🤗🌻🌿☀️

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    1. Jim Simmonds Post author

      If I’m a superhero does that mean I now have to wear my underpants over my trousers in the style of Superman?😉
      I’d also like a Superhero costume and a Superhero name please. Please carry on being lovely and complex 🙂

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